Meow Blog

Dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit. So damn tired, please just throw me in a room of silence. Dammn it. GOODNESS.

-Zane

Hmm, feeling rather nostalgic today. Well somewhat at least. I feel that i can go on typing and typing and typing and continue doing that forever and not stop without sleep nor food. The clock is ticking and i want the damn clock to stop. I hate it when it constantly ticks and ticks and ticks and keeps going on. Sometimes we just need a pause. We need.. lost the mood to blog. forget it.

-Zane

Hello, it’s a Sunday Evening since it’s about to be 7pm now. Raining outside, someone singing Karoake and lots of ang bao’s going around. Chinese New Year has been the same, the only thing i think i really like is the food. I need to learn to start making good food by myself and spending less time eating outside. Asked a Programmer whats the best way to program he said books, so i guess i might be spending money on a few books, but not until i return clement. Anyway, McDonald’s has been bugging me to work and i was supposed to work today but my mind told me to fuck it. I don’t really know what i want anymore, i just want a break. Dammit, School School School and more work plus going out plus play plus alot of other things that waste my time. I have absolutely no time for work at the moment, I NEED A BREAkK. Sigh. I am still irritated that my laptop isnt in it’s Pristine Condition anymore and it looks horrrendous. Dammit. Nothing really much to comment on anything. One more thing, if you wanna keep in contact with me, please do not call me. text me instead, i dont have caller id and i dont like talking to certain people with my handphone, i might probably get another number just for the sake of not having to stand picking up calls from these people, i should have gotten a prepaid number in the first place and given it to them, They have my house number too, fuck man if they call my house. I DO NOT LIKE YOU GUYS TO CALL MY HOUSE, DO NOT CALL MY HOUSE. DO NOT FUCKING CALL MY HOUSE. IF YOU CANT CONTACT ME, SO BE IT. FIRE ME. I really dont care right now. I am just so tired. I dont even know whats next week, there is a Chemistry test and i havent even studied for it. I really gotta get my life in order. 100% , give it my 100%.  Gotta maintain that mindset. Might make a post, might not.

-Zane

First of all, this is my life. Second of all, this is my studies and my certificate i am getting. This certificate does not belong to you or anyone else, and it belongs only to me. So please dont advise me on how i should run my life and when i am gonna “wake” up. You wake up, do something about your screwed up teaching. First of all, when i do something genuine, you prove me wrong. Fuck you for that. Second, i passed my test and it was a B3(Just calculated) so it is not a fucking borderline pass. Third, the last sentence you said you said that you didnt give a shit about people like me anymore, then why the fuck did you call me to talk to you. I will fucking prove you wrong that i can actually do something, Lenses and mirrors are just not my thing get it? My science is still averaging and that will have to continue until i get my A math partially solved, stop stressing me any fucking more and i know what i am supposed to do. I am in the process of getting my life in order, I know my priorities . The only problem is that i procrastinate ALOT. fuck man. I hate my room. You stick with your shit, do what you must. I don’t give two hoots even if you highlight my name to the god damn principal. I am gonna take my O levels whether you like it or not and i am gonna get into the course I WANT. No one is gonna stop me and neither are you. Trust me, if i gave my 100% Straight A’s would be peanuts for me.

Tsk, that’s about it. Next one is that i dropped my laptop today. ._____________________.  The sides are abit fucked up, gotta bring it down to the service center, will probably ask them to change the casing and thats about it. -Sigh-. Money again. Clement i still owe you money dammit, why wont you just take the money first. grr.

-Zane

Got that first word of the post from google, dont you love google. I do. In my opinion Google> Apple. So anyway, havent been blogging well since the 19th of January, It’s getting more of a bore updating this blog as to my statistics say, no one actually READS it. ._. Well, i dont know if anyone does but Facebook and Twitter does help to publicize my blog abit but thats about it, my old blog has much more hits as random person were searching for stuff and there were alot of old posts unlike this blog which has just started, should i perservere and continue blogging or turn this whole domain into something new? I’m thinking about it too. Well, lets jot up a lists of task that i am supposed to do.

1. Continue with C# and try to understand – Not done.
2. Continue Blogging – Not done.
3. Go to school regularly – Not done.
4. Try to sit down and study – Not done.
5. Stop using the PC for the whole day – Not done.
6. Stop wasting time on god damn MouseHunt – Not done.
7. Stop wasting time on Borderlands – Not done.
8. Stop watching movies – Not done.
9. Stop using Vulgarities – Not done.
10. Read a book – In Progress.

Woah, that’s alot of tasks to be done. damn. I am tired, my whole body is aching and my left wrist is kinda sprained, dont ask me how i sprained it, i have no idea. Life has been pretty plain lately, nothing much to talk about. Don’t even talk about my love life, i detest it. It’s a burden and a pain in the ass to me. School Life is even worse, i feel indifferent. Being indifferent is so boring but well, that’s how life is. This is one of the times where i question why we live again. I’ll be reading a book after this post and maybe i’ll deduce why i’m living again and for what. Right now, all i want to do is past time. So much time yet so little time also. I might be depressed, might not. I don’t think i’m depressed though, i think im rather feeling the weight of life and such dreadful things we must do. ( Still sane here.) I forgot what i wanted to say to carry on but well, that’s about it. Imma go now, it’s gonna be late soon. Meh, it already is.

-Zane